Revival and Response

Tonight, I am sitting here...gathering my thoughts...wondering what it looks like...wondering how the spiritual plays such a dynamic in the physical.

I was preparing for revival tonight...when God really fell in my hotel room...and I felt like I had a word for the body.   So l went to revival, shirt all wrinkled(did not have time to iron it) and we had service.  There was a time of worship, and the Word was preached.   But God has been working on me in the idea of response...My desire or ideal response is that God would just wreck the place.   That people would come to the altar and just meet Jesus (you know)!  However I am reminded of the parable of the sower and how the seed fell on all different types of ground.  The only ground that the seed was able to grow in was the ground that was fertile...that was tilled up...that was able to receive the seed.  Then that seed germinated in the ground and that seed slowly grew into a plant.  Then as that seed continued to grow over time it grew into a tree... and eventually that tree began to produce fruit....so many times...I have seen people come to the altar...and it looks like the Word of God is going to take root...but it goes into the ground and it shoots up...but it gets choked out by the cares of this world and it never produces fruit.....

I wonder if the reason that I look for the response...because the response makes me feel good about myself.  It gives me validation....and I wonder if God is speaking to me...and saying it is not about the response...it is about Him and what He has placed in me(a Word)... and that Word is for His people....and my place in the body is to be that message bearer...the one who carrys that Word and presents it to the body

I am learning to walk in what He has created me to be...and as I step into that...I realize that I am a message bearer (one who carrys the Word)!